We walked down to the great meadow, your dancing hands accidentally bumped into mine as we navigated the steep terrain. At the bottom, I turned to you and touched your round cheek in my outstretch palm. Dragonflies and small winged insects hummed in the still, warm summer air, swimming in circles, catching the [...]
January 3, 2009 – 11:15 pm
2009 greeted me with a harsh winter cold that made my voice deeper and hoarser than normal. I bought a dungeness crab and a bottle of champagne and proceeded to get more drunk than my health would have preferred.
Last night I saw the girl off to her father’s and went straight to bed, covered in [...]
December 17, 2008 – 11:39 pm
You’re a dark spec on the horizon while I’m floating away. Walking the streets of London. Curling up close to musical voices more embracing than the California air outside. I am everywhere and simply nowhere. Do my eyes betray me? I’m sure the blank stare is confusing, but I’m too impressionable to resist the lure [...]
November 20, 2008 – 11:31 pm
I am a white woman living in an affluent country, in a liberal state, with an education and a good job. I am not oppressed like women in Darfur or Afghanistan. I have never been attacked… at least not by a stranger. Even with the most basic credentials of a first world country, I am [...]
October 15, 2008 – 6:03 pm
A stretch of cobble accents the maze-like streets though Le Marais district in Paris. Stifled by heat wave, but enamored by presence, I transcend the physical discomfort to seek out just one more perfect café . The red wine is served chilled and the cheese sweats when brought to your table, but I don’t mind. [...]
September 22, 2008 – 4:58 pm
The first breath of air upon going outside forklifts acres of nostalgia straight into my senses. I am alive with possibilities, alive with memory. A swift, brisk current sends the first leaves from the trees as I reach to pull my sweater down around my whitened knuckles. Autumn takes me back home. A sense [...]
September 9, 2008 – 4:36 pm
I was walking towards the coffee shop when I saw you over there, serving tables. Pain of recognition struck. I knew I should have moved on, but it felt stupid to sneak away. I’ve known you since we were almost children. Could I really just turn and run?
I crossed over to the restaurant and walked [...]
August 27, 2008 – 5:16 pm
There was something in the pantomime of your eyes. A quick flick down and to the right when you said you loved me. We were never the same again. Loosing you was just the beginning.
I remember distinctly sliding down the walls of doubt, a painful spiral, and my fingers slipping down the greasy [...]
August 21, 2008 – 5:29 pm
slipping through and endless sky
inordinate and just flying by
my musical lover sends a gift
and every cloud appears to lift
like a child i can see again
returning to hills where we ran
together, an inseperable team
two twins joined without seam
my lover holds no stitches to me
siamese kittens, we’ll never be
as close as you an i, my friend
this i [...]
August 14, 2008 – 7:28 pm
As I lay upon the tidal ocean shore
Your body lapping up onto mine
Warm as milk, wet as summer rain
I am lost in your thousand-mile horizon
Warmth within me, under, your sea
I am taken into your undertow
As I rise up, blessed things are forgotten
Satisfied and lost no more
A thousand hands wait to pull us into
This lonely, forgotten [...]
