December 29, 2008 – 1:24 am
One winter morning, I had crab in Bandon, Oregon.
I went up the coast and went out one morning and bought crab in Bandon, Oregon.
I drove up along the rugged coast of Oregon and went out one morning and got crab in Bandon, Oregon.
I rode up the coast on my motorcycle just as my marriage was [...]
December 27, 2008 – 8:50 pm
Some summer afternoons we would go out to dinner in a neighboring town. We’d take the backroads and meander through dust and meadows and pepper trees. On these drives, talk would turn lazy and philosophical. They were our best moments by far.
Now, I’m just tired. When I regain balance, she knocks me off my [...]
December 27, 2008 – 4:12 pm
I have a feeling in my diaphragm, like an empty hole. A void I’m aware of when I stop to listen. Its the space that at other times has filled with fluttering leaves that I can’t ignore, the wandering, spreading flutter that radiates down my stomach, up my back to tickle and scratch at the [...]
December 26, 2008 – 4:05 am
Had unusual dreams last night under a foot of blankets. Elaine told me she’s never had an orgasm. I said, “Never?” And she said, “Never,” in that way she has that is sardonically accepting of every situation. And I wake up thinking of Sophie. Just that thought in my head. That’s all.
I’m chafing in my [...]
December 22, 2008 – 10:35 pm
I collect records. Ever since I was a kid. My first record was not a collector’s item. It was Shaun Cassidy. An album called Born Late. I still have it. I haven’t listened to it in twenty years. But I can’t bear to get rid of it. [...]
December 20, 2008 – 12:44 am
Feeling guilty about it is no good at all. He can’t win this one. She can’t win this one. It isn’t that he wants to tell her how to behave, and he’s not willing to tell her how to feel. But if he would, if he could. In a secret [...]
December 17, 2008 – 11:39 pm
You’re a dark spec on the horizon while I’m floating away. Walking the streets of London. Curling up close to musical voices more embracing than the California air outside. I am everywhere and simply nowhere. Do my eyes betray me? I’m sure the blank stare is confusing, but I’m too impressionable to resist the lure [...]
December 14, 2008 – 4:56 am
When first I lost you I was unconcerned
I knew you’d come back
Maybe not today or the next
But eventually and inevitably
Like that time I lost my wallet
And it turned up in a park
Full of cash and cards
Two states away.
I figured you dropped out of my pocket
As I rode back from the Farmer’s Market
With peaches and strawberries
And [...]
